A little something

The honest truth was that I initially felt disappointed, overworked and under appreciated when I found out I didn't get the posting I wanted.

I had worked so hard the past year, staying back after work to call patients and ask after them, slotting in last minute cases so that I can complete their treatments as fast as possible. Many times I'll carry around boxes and hunt down my bosses to discuss cases. Some days when I've towers of green boxes on my table, I'll look through them and fill up the lab cards before I allow myself to go home..

There were instances when I felt enthusiastic enough to help organize events even though it meant working extra for no additional gain.

Yet, despite all that I didn't get the posting I wanted. What did I do wrong?

When I received the cheque from the old work place, I suddenly felt a little recognized for what I've done.. The extra hours, effort, passion and care I've put into each patient paid off somewhat.

Now everything is starting to make sense slowly.. It was all a blessing in disguise. I finally got what I needed - a taste of something different, the real experience of working as a GP. Having to make my own calls with no one to consult and help whilst doing procedures like wisdom tooth operations and root canal treatments on top of the prostho work I was used to doing.

Now the same question remains - should I or should I not specialize? Local or overseas? Sigh I've a few months to ponder over it while applications start to open the later part of this year.. I wish someone would shed me some light..